Eyelash extensions and why I love mine....

So I don't have the best eyelashes in the world, they aren't very dark they seem short and they don't curl.  So I decided to try some eyelash exensions.  So first and foremost, go to someone experienced in a salon where they have all the amazing tools to do them correctly the first time.  I had some issues with my lashes originally, that being said the girl who did them is Amazing....but I think going to the salon made my experience much more worthwhile.  I went in and they removed my old extensions since they don't guarantee anyone elses work and only guarantee theirs.  The guy who did them Tim was amazing and made me feel comfortable the minute I walked in.  I will say lashes aren't cheap....but beauty never is right?  So he took off the old ones and then had me rinse off the solution they used to get the old ones off.  Then he taped me up, seriously you feel like you are going to have major eye surgery.  This shit takes longer than lasik :)....2 hours in the chair - however worth every minute and dime.  So they basically are gluing individual lashes to all of your natural lashes.  They look and feel natural but so much more beautiful than my natural lashes.  I felt a little bad as I did fall asleep as he was doing them, but who wouldn't when you are relaxing in a huge black leather lazy boy.  I will have to post some pictures because they really do look Amazeballs!  I am a huge fan of my eyes (yes tooting my own horn) they are one feature on my body that I have never complained about.  The lashes just bring them out even more.  I have tried all the fancy mascara and the thing I like about lash extensions, no more clumpy mascara, no eyelash curling, the only thing I have to worry about is taking care of them....I love that I don't have to wear mascara anymore and crimp my lashes with the lash curler only to not have them curl and be disappointed in every mascara I have ever tried.  So if you are ever thinking about lash extensions I highly recommend them.  They are Fabulous!  I am giving the blog an overhaul in the next couple of months, looks for some changes and I am also hoping to get some more followers! So send some readers my way.  I look forward to any comments or suggestions. Much love until next time. :)

Let's talk public bathrooms ya'll...

I seriously hate public bathrooms. I hate them. I think they are dirty, gross and nasty. With that being said they are ultimately unavoidable. If you work in an office, most likely you don’t have your own little private bathroom. Women are nasty, I am just gonna say it, so are men….but women what are you thinking. Clean up after yourself, if you make a mess in the stall clean it up…. I won’t go into details about things I have seen or heard in my office bathroom but it has made my stomach churn. I am just gonna tell you, cell phones should not be talked on in the public bathroom, if I can hear you texting, playing a game whatevs, it is nasty! I just think that there is a time to be talking on your phone and texting and it isn’t while someone is in the next stall to you taking a crap! I don’t even want to listen to you take a crap much less the person on your cell phone hearing it….flush the toilet a couple times no one wants to hear that nasty crap! Seriously you think the person on the other end of the phone wants to hear what the neighbor in the bathroom is doing – I promise you this “THEY DON’T”. This is my work bathroom, let’s talk about public bathrooms…. Target, Walmart, Fast Food joints, it is even worse, so if you can imagine how bad my work bathroom is let’s walk into a Walmart and see what kind of stuff is on their floors….most of you know that I am single mom….let me tell you I am like a bathroom Nazi…I won’t let him touch anything. He tries to lift the seat and I pretty much freak out on him. It is nasty, nasty, nasty…. I am off my bathroom rant.

Dating and my Crazy day.

I will start off with my crazy day..... I am a single mom, I get up at 4:00 everyday and take my son to my moms which is about a 20 minute drive in the other direction of my office.  I drop him off and then head into the office and then after work, I drive 20 minutes back to pick him up from school and then head home.  I am so thankful that my mom is so helpful and watches my kiddo everyday because I seriously don't know what I would do without her.  So today was crazy busy at work, and then I went to get my kiddo.  I had to pee something crazy, so we stopped off at my moms, used the bathroom and headed out.  We were half way home, and my kiddo seems to throw a fit anytime I take the freeway (he wants to drive on the side roads, it is slower and by the time we get home his friend is home from school)..... so anyhoo we skipped the freeway on ramp, and my kiddo saw an officer on the side of the road, he was up on the curb and my kiddo wanted to know if he could do that....well it isn't against the law or anything, next thing I know I see all these cops, swat teams, headed up the off ramp... I was at the light waiting for it to change.  I looked over and saw they had weapons out and I seriously thought they were gonna shoot someone, my kiddo was crying because he can see everything also (that's how freaking close we were).  Well the car that they were after comes flying down the off ramp and I swear I have never seen so many police officers flying off the freeway in my life.... seriously like 50 of them would not be an exaggeration, it was nuts and super crazy scary all at the same time.  They spiked the guys tires and did a pit maneuver and caught him.... it was honestly the most insane thing I had ever seen, and anyone who knows me, knows how crazy I am and obsessed with police chases etc..., so of course I pulled my ass over and snapped a few photos.  It was insane!  So many people, so many cops, news etc.......

Ahh on to my dating life..... I hate dating, and I also hate being single.  I have been single for 3 + years since I kicked out my X.  I have dated a few times, but nothing serious.  I just hate dating.  I don't know how to take people, I am not a good date, I don't know what to say and I am super awkward.  I have been on 4 dates over the last few months and only one of them kept in touch and wanted to go out again (probably because he was more awkward then I was on our date)!!  I have been talking to a new guy for almost 2 months now, and we have yet to go out.  I just want to go out with him already.  I feel like we know each other pretty well and I just want to meet him already and see what the heck is going to come of it.  Even if we are just friends then I am ok with that, I just want to know.  I have some anxiety about going out with him, because what if he doesn't like me and then all the fun of getting to know him over the last 2 months will be done....what if he does like me, but the feeling isn't mutual... what if we both like each other then what?  Where do you go from there.... dating isn't natural I decided.  I also think I self sabotage my dating.... in my head I don't think I am good enough, I know I am overweight, and just knowing that makes me automatically think that the guy I go out with is going to judge me based on my weight.  I have had it happen so I just assume it will always happen and I freak myself out about it.  I know I need to put myself out there but how do you do that exactly and why does it have to be so scary......well we will see if he asks me out, we were supposed to go to dinner this week and now I am not so sure.  I have this strange feeling he might back out and it honestly wouldn't be the first time someone has.  I think this all stems back to my friend the DB one..... yeah him... you can read about him here post and I think that is what worries me the most.  If he was my best friend and treated me that way because of my weight then anyone could do the same thing, and even though you try to not let it hurt it still does.... day by day though I am getting stronger.

A new idea...

So when I first started blogging I had decided that I was doing a weight loss blog and I really didn't know what to write about.  I read a lot of hilarious blogs.... mine doesn't even compare.  I realized though that my writings should be just that .... my writings.  Even if what I am writing about doesn't pertain to weight loss it still might be interesting to someone who is out in the crazy blog land reading my posts (which there isn't many of you).....
I was thinking this weekend about my weight loss and how it has been up and down.  I found someone to go to weight watchers with me and I am super excited about someone else being there and helping me be accountable to going to my meetings.  I have the hardest time sitting through the meetings sometimes.  I hear people talk about the amazing experience at the WW meetings they go to, and I have yet to find that.  I am a people person, well I think I am.  I think I am pretty amazing and funny, but for some reason I just don't click with the people at the meetings that I go to.  It seems that they are already in some sort of WW group that I don't belong to.  I have tried talking to people at the meetings and they seem closed off and not friendly.  It is hard when you go to these meetings expecting people to be nice and welcome because they are struggling with the same things you are.  Honestly I find the people more motivating online on the blogs I read.  I have never had someone sit by me at a WW meeting.  I know I don't smell, maybe they just don't like my perfume - but whatever the reason it is the strangest thing I have ever encountered.  I am happy to have someone else be there with me just so that I am not alone.  This week marks my 16 weeks of WW - I get an award and I have lost 15 pounds.  I am so happy to know that even though it has taken me 16 weeks to get there that I have lost almost a pound a week with no real excercise and for that I can be proud.  I am proud of what I have accomplished in those 16 weeks.  Speaking of excercise, I bought a kettle ball and a kettle ball workout video I am excited to get started.  I bought some new furniture this weekend that I love, but now I have an old couch and chair in the middle of my living room, can't wait for it to be picked up so I can pull my treadmill back out and start working on the couch to 5K, I have read so many things in blog land that couch to 5K really worked and has helped many people on their journey as well as helped them drop some pounds. I am hoping that it will work for me.  We will see, I want to get to a place that if I go out on date I know that the person isn't judging me based on my looks and not getting to know the real me - because god knows that has happened more than once.  I will post more on my dating life in my next post.... I am supposed to go to dinner with a friend this week so we will see how it goes. :D Until next time.

I am a work in progress

I am a work in progress....
I might not be the prettiest girl.
I might not be the funniest girl.
I might not be the thinnest girl.

I am me, I am a work in progress.  I am working everyday to be a better version of myself.  I might not be the best, but I am worth it.  I am doing something about it, I am trying and that is more than I can say for others.  I hate negativity.  I hate not being who I want to be.  I am trying.  I know that one day how hard I work will pay off.  It might not be tomorrow, it might not be next week.  But it will pay off and I will be the best version of me that I can be.  I get so tired of dating and having people say that I have a beautiful face, I spoke of that in my last post.  I don't want to just be the girl with the pretty face.  I have so much more than offer and I am tired of people not seeing that about me.  I know that one day they will and I will have moved on.  I try not to let the past impact me, but it does.  It is hard to know that someone won't talk to you because of what you look like.  It is sad, and it hurts. 

I am a work in progress..... I have lost 15 pounds since starting WW and that is something.