Our first Bike ride....

So we took the day Sunday getting ready for a bike ride that evening.  We went out and my roommate bought himself a bike and then we pulled out my little ones bike to get it fixed up and mine to do the same.  I am sure that I need a full tune up on my bike.  We made a few trips to the store and then a quick trip to the bike shop (the only one I could find open on a Sunday).  We got the bikes in good enough shape to go out on our evening ride.  The weather has been crazy here, rain and 102 degree weather all in the same week.  I have to tell you besides and indoor stationary bike, I haven't been on a bike in almost 20 years.... I was super scared to get on that bike.  I know they say that riding a bike is like tying your shoes something you just won't forget, but I was still a little intimidated by my bike.  It was bigger than me and I am a short thing, so getting my butt up on that seat was somewhat of a challenge, but I did it.... the biking wasn't the challenge that I was having it was all the issues during our bike ride.  First off my sons chain fell off his bike and that really sucked, so we had to stop to fix that... then we got chased by a dog and it was biting and nipping at my sons leg and he was scared to death he is only 5 so the dog was freaking him out.  The most annoying thing about the dog was that the owners were outside when the dog started chasing us they saw him biting at my sons leg and they were not doing anything about it.  I was yelling because in the city I live in there is a leash law and dogs are not allowed to be off their leash unless they are inside or in the owners yard.  I was extremely irritated at the fact that they just stood there and let the dog chase us without doing anything about it. So I yelled at them about the dog not being on a leash and then my roommate almost ran into my son with his bike trying to get the dog to chase him instead of us.... when we finally all met up again the chain on his bike came off again and then to top it off it came off 5 more times....so all in all we rode a mile and half and it took us 20 minutes.... I know CRAZY it should not take this long to ride 1.5 miles but it did.... so that is my story on our very first bike ride.  We will be venturing out again tomorrow night hopefully our luck is better :)  I did enjoy the bike ride other than being at my weight and on a bike can be very painful (seat not comfortable) even with the new seat I purchase..... Ahh well it isn't gonna stop me, next year I will be busting up that 100 mile MS ride and I can't wait to kick butt at it! :)

Running..100 mile Bike ride.....and a Dr. Appointment.

So I have my Dr. Appointment tomorrow.... I am looking forward to it just to see where I am at and how I am doing and if I have at least been maintaining since I was in last time....since I wasn't completely committed to this process.... so a maintain is better than a gain.  We will see where I am at tomorrow and then to be accountable I will post that on here so that I am accountable for what I am doing.  It makes it all real when you can have it there in front of you and see it right?? I am not going to sabotage myself this time because I feel like that is what I do every time that I start on this journey and I am not going to let that happen. 

My roommate told me yesterday that his boss has told him that he is going to ride in the 100 mile bike ride for Jr. Diabetes next year..... so guess what.... You got it, I am going to start training with him... I know I am setting all these goals but they are attainable.  I have year to get ready.  When I hit my year... my goal is to be healthier, in shape so that I can bike ride the entire 100 miles... able to run more than the intervals that I have been doing for the last few days.  I feel proud though, after only starting to walk/run for the last 3 days today I got in  2 runs.... 10 minute intervals before work and 21 minutes of intervals after work.... MY CALVES are KILLING ME!!  But it is not going to stop me.... see quote below on PAIN!!  I can do this I really can I have this in the bag.  I seriously have my mind set.  I watched something and it just clicked for me.... I guess it really only takes that...something to make it click for you and I am there.  I want to do things that right now I can't do.  I mentioned before I want to go on a cruise when I turn 40 (that is in 3 years) but I don't want to go on a cruise and be unhealthy and hide in my room the entire time.  Next year besides doing the 100 mile bike ride, I want to go River Rafting...I have always wanted to go, but I thought I am 300 + pounds.... they are not going to let me on the raft it will sink!! ( I know it probably won't sink ) ... but you get my point.  These are the things that I say to myself.... because that is how deep down I am feeling.  I know people stare at me, I know it isn't in my head because I know it happens I have done it myself...I stare at other people who are heavy and wonder if I am as big as them and really does it matter.... ??  I don't think it really does.... what matters is what I do about me and what I want... and I want to be at a healthy weight and do everything I can to be the best mom I can be and the best person I can be for me for my son .... that is really all that matters..... so I am doing it.... I got this in the BAG, bring it on baby!!

This is so true, now more than ever... I realized this once I started running intervals.  It is only going to hurt for a little while.

See me below....yes that is real sweat dripping off of my head and it felt FREAKING AMAZING!!

And one last quote that really hit my hard today and it is so true!

7-11 Free Slurpee Day

Yes today is free Slurpee day at 7-11 if you are not familiar with 7-11 it is like a convenience store on almost every street corner where I live.  They have Slurpee's which are fabulous!  I am so happy that they have them in the lite version so that I could enjoy me a free Slurpee today! I checked my fitness pal for the calories and I am so happy that in 8oz there was only 20 calories! EXCELLENT!! Tonight I am making some crock pot chicken it is so delicious.  I am pretty good with counting calories and eating right, but when it comes to exercise I am such a slacker it is like I think I should really be doing my workout videos and I should really be walking on my treadmill but the heat is horrible right now... but I do need to take advice from others and think to myself DIA.... Do it anyways (Thanks Don) ... and if you aren't reading his blog and you are reading mine you should check his blog out at www.210again.blogspot.com .  He has a great blog and has some pretty cool videos about his journey to bike from Tokyo to Fuji Mountain..... take a look.  I love finding new blogs so if you have any that you find interesting and a good read leave me a comment and let me know.  Well today has been a pretty good day so far, I think I am going to pull out my DVD and workout.... I mean you have to start somewhere right...today is my day.  Wish me luck! :) Have a great day!

10 days in ....and it is just to HOT!!

I seriously am hating this heat.... 102 degrees when I jumped in the car today to head home from work.  Really this is just to hot!  It is to hot to leave the house but I do it anyways because I have to work, it is to hot to workout but I am trying I have to workout right underneath my swamp cooler so that I don't fall down and die..... seriously water is my best friend right now which in all reality is a good thing.  I am making progress and trying to figure out what my next move is.  The calorie counting seems to be going alright but I need some motivation.  I feel so lazy, I even took the elevator a few times at work over the last couple of weeks.  I need to stop taking that darn elevator again....there really is no reason for me to jump on the elevator, I am perfectly capable of walking up the stairs...out of breath when I get to the top .. YES .. but still perfectly capable of taking them.  I just don't have any motivation this heat is taking a toll on me and it is making me crazy.  I don't remember it being this hot last year but then again maybe it was. 

Relay is coming up and I don't think I am ready, I haven't been training or putting in the walking hours and I am probably going to need a million breaks but I am doing it regardless if I am ready or not.  I am thinking we are going to get in a few miles walking all night long but it will be so worth it in the end.  I am excited for Relay.  Even though I haven't earned a dime towards my goal of $100.00 I am still excited and ready to go for the big night coming up in less than 2 weeks. :)

So I have a new goal.....I want to take a cruise.  It is my goal to drop at least 100 lbs before I go on the cruise.  I want to take it for my 40th Birthday but that is 3 years away so my goal is to drop 100 lbs in the next year.  I think that I can do it.  I need as much push as I can get so if you are a reader of my blog please leave me comments and motivate me the best you can and I will do the same for you.  I so badly want to go on a cruise and I have made a goal that I go when it is my 40th Birthday or I go when I lose over 100 lbs whichever comes first so I am hoping that the 100 lbs comes first.... Wish me luck and if you haven't done it yet follow me on twitter or pinterest.....you won't regret it!  Best of Luck to everyone with a goal..... we can do this!! :D Hard work and Dedication!

Being out of touch...

Lately I have been out of touch.... it has happened before and I am sure it will happen again.  I mean in life things happen right.  I haven't figured it out....I mean honestly who has??  In this world I believe that everyone struggles...everyone has good and bad days.  Somtimes more good then bad and sometimes more bad then good.  It happens and the best thing to do is to get back up and try again....try again every single day.  If you make a mistake pick yourself up off the floor and regain your footing.  I mean honestly no one is going to do it for you.  You have to do it yourself, you have to make changes in your life if you want to see changes happen. 
I have been using myfitnesspal to record all my calories...then I realized I am not recording all my calories...there are things I often forget like sauces, and certain things you put in your mouth without really thinking it counts when in all reality it counts.  No wonder why my scale hasn't moved in weeks, no wonder I am right where I was when I started this journey.  I need to stop making excuses as to why I can't do things and why I don't need to do this or don't need to do that....or can't do this or can't do that.... because honestly I believe that I can do anything I set my mind to...I just need to do it and stop finding reasons to not do it. 
I am 100% committed to committing again to do what I know I can do....I know it won't always be easy, but I know for a fact that it will be worth it...it has to be.  I need to do this for me.  I need to be accountable...I need to get my shoes on and walk out the door and do this...do this everyday for me...for me to be healthy for me, for me to be healthy for my son so that I can be a good mom and do everything I want to with my son not just hang out on the couch and watch TV all day long while he is outside playing I want to be outside playing with him.  This is my life I need to pick up and start it..... Here is me....me ....316lb me.... making a change that I have to make.  I can do this.....it is inside of me and I am going to do everything I can to make this change.