Because sometimes it just clicks!

It's amazing how you might see something on TV, or hear someone say something, or read something and you stop in your tracks and everything just clicks!  I haven't been blogging much as I had other things to do like lay on the couch, eat lots of food and get fatter.  Let's be honest sometimes that is just what you want to do.  I was laying around the other day and thinking is this it?  Is this truly my life? Then something clicked in me and I thought to myself "I don't want to be fat anymore, I am tired of living my life this way!" I went to the grocery store filled up my basket with healthy food, came home and started right then.  I didn't say oh it can wait till tomorrow or I will start Monday.  I started right then, I ate a healthy dinner...I fixed a healthy breakfast and lunch for the next day and I went to the gym.  I felt amazing, and it was like something clicked in me that hadn't for a long time.  I am tired of being on the side lines and wasting my life away sitting on a sofa eating fast food and watching weight loss shows on TV.  I am tired of people saying you have such a pretty face, I am tired of watching my friends go out and me sit home because I don't feel good enough about me to go.  I can't tell you how many times I cancel on my friends because I don't feel good in my own skin.... I want to live life, experience new things but most of all I want to be around for my amazing 6 year old.  Being a single mom isn't easy it is one of the hardest things I have ever done but I know I can do it and I want to do it right. I want to be able to kick around a soccer ball with my son on the field or just play with him at a at ground.  I realized I am worth way more than I give myself credit for and I need to remember to Believe in myself and that anything is possible! I have to be able to love myself and I know it is hard to say because so often we don't love ourselves but we need to and we can.  I got this and I have my feet pointed in the right direction for the first time in a long time. I am my biggest FAN!