Accountability

What is accountability? To me accountability is being responsible for my own actions, being responsible for myself and being accountable for what I am doing. The definition of accountability is this: The quality or state of being accountable; especially : an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one’s actions. Truth – we are responsible for our actions and certain actions have consequences. Even in weight loss there are consequences if we are not accountable for ourselves. Each decision we make determines the range of choices that we will face next. My goal was to get under 300 lbs this week, however certain choices I made over the weekend caused me to gain instead of lose. I am accountable for those choices. I know the reason I didn’t lose. I think that making yourself accountable for things makes you realize when you might need to change things to meet your goals. I know what I did that caused me to gain instead of lose and I take responsibility for it and choose to focus on doing better this week.

I am a tracker – I track everything. Even before starting WW I was a tracker. I used the “my fitness pal” app. I tracked calories. It wasn’t working for me which is the reason I joined WW. I think sometimes even the accountability on the scale at your meetings makes a difference. I always get in my car and head to my meetings on Monday’s. In my mind I think “If I have gained then I am not staying for the meeting”, but what would the purpose of that be. Isn’t that why I go to the meetings in the first place? I get there I weigh in and usually either way gain or loss…I stay. Why? Because I need to. It helps me to be accountable. I know WW and meetings isn’t for everyone, but it is for me. I need to go somewhere that helps me be accountable for what I am doing. I need to know where I am at and the scale at home doesn’t help with that. I like that when I have a good loss on the scale that my leader congratulates me for that loss and when I don’t see a loss that she asks what she can do or if I know what happened and the reason for that gain. I need that accountability. I also know that you can’t beat yourself up if you fall off track, you just get right back on and take the responsibility for it. I know that this week is going to be a better week. I am hoping that I can meet my goal and get under 300. I am counting on me and I got this, and if the scale isn’t under 300 I am not going to beat myself up for it, I am just going to keep going. I mean stopping is not an option….that is what got me here in the first place. This coming weekend is going to push me to my limits with a Halloween Party and all the finger foods and snacking….but I know I can do it.

** The greatest battles in life are fought in the silent chambers of the soul. – David O. McKay