Feeling Amazing! (:

12 days in and I feel Amazing!  This has been the best thing I could have done for myself. The awesome thing is that no one can take it away from me.  They can't take away my hard work, they can't take away my healthy eating and they cAnt take away how I feel.  I love working out, I love the new healthy foods I have been eating.  I love the fact that I haven't had any soda for 2 weeks....there is nothing better than I how feel right now.  I think the only discouraging thing for me is not seeing the number on the scale move. I know it is not the number that counts though and I know that sometimes working out causes you to gain muscle and it take a few weeks to see the pounds drop.  I am not letting this stop me! I love everything about what I am doing and for once I am putting ME first and I know I am doing the right thing for me and for my sweet boy!  Living life has a new meaning and it starts now and I couldn't be happier <3

Setting Goals

I decided to set some goals for myself....after all this is my journey.  Plus rewarding yourself for doing good makes you feel good.  My first weight loss goal is 10%.  I think this goal just fits and is a common first goal for many people.  My second goal that isn't weight loss related is to workout at least 3 nights a week. This week I have already hit 4 nights and that doesn't include today, so this goal is for next week.  I know I can do better than 3 nights but I need something to work towards.  This goal is to workout 3 nights a week starting next week for 3 weeks in a row.  I am not sure what my reward will be yet, maybe a new pair of workout pants or a top.  My reward for losing 31 pounds is to get a new sports bra because I will need one after a 31lb loss I am sure and working out in the gym with floppy boobies is not on my list of fun(: 

I think the single most thing about starting this journey again is that it is for ME.  I am doing this for myself not for anyone else.  I am proud of myself already and it has only been 6 days but that is something and for me that is a huge accomplishment already. What is better than loving yourself and giving yourself the gift to be healthy since you have it in the palm of your hands already?  It is time we start loving who we are.   I can't wait to see where this journey will take me. 

Reality and the girl with a pretty face....

Reality is..... I am FAT.  I know in life we don't ever want to face reality, but the truth of the matter is that sometimes we have to.  I am trying everyday to be a better mom, a better friend and a better version of me.  It is hard though, and it gets harder when people kick you when you are already feeling down.  I joined WW 10 weeks ago, and I am trying to eat healthier and it is hard....everything we want in life is hard but we fight for what we want and I am a fighter.  2013 is my year.... and I have been kicked already.... I have had a few struggles the last few years.  The loss of someone I thought was my best friend because of my weight.  I know we can say well he is shallow and he wasn't really your friend anyway.  The truth is he was honest with me.....he didn't sugar coat the reality of the fact that I am FAT...but what hurt is he was my friend and it ruined our friendship.  Recently I was talking to someone....this person seemed Awesome.  He said something about FAT people and I realized, wow this person has seen my face but he hasn't seen me....the thing is I am Awesome, it's true... I have an awesome personality, my laugh is infectious.... I love to smile, I love to make people happy and I am probably one of the most forgiving people you will ever meet in your life... but I am a "bigger person"..... I sent this person a picture of me and that is how he classified me.  He said you have a gorgeous face and that is what attracted me to you...but I didn't realize you were a "bigger person".... I can say what an ass, but it's true.  I am a bigger person I have been for way to long.  I haven't ever truly focused on myself and taken care of me.  Truth is that I need to, I am important.  I need to do this for me and for my son so that I am here for a long time to take care of him.  I realize what this person said was so hurtful it made me feel so small.  It made me feel like I wasn't worth anyones time, and that I didn't deserve to be happy.  The truth is that I deserve to be happy.  I deserve to have someone want to spend time with me.... and if this person or my old friend didn't want to spend time with me how I am now then they don't deserve to spend time with me at all.  I am worth so much more than that.  I know I am worth more.  I will Rock 2013.....I plan to blog more often, workout more often and continue with my WW and my goal to lose 60 pounds by the time I go to Florida in June to see my sister... I can do this one day at a time.  I thank all of the assholes who tell me that I am just a girl with a pretty face because one day I will be a girl with a pretty face and a hot body and you won't see this girl even looking your way.  The sad thing about that is I am Awesome and you won't ever get to see anything beyond your shallow way of thinking...... here I am come 2013, I am not looking back ever again this is my year.

I am treading...

I have decided that the best thing for me is to buy a treadmill.  I am heading out this morning to go get a really nice one that I found.  It is a little expensive however I am excited about buying it.  I found this Awesome workout that will fit me since I have a long way to go.  It starts out slow but eventually within 12 weeks I will be walking 40-60 minutes daily.  I need that because I don't want to start out to quickly.  www.thewalkingsite.com This is the site that I am going to use to start out, you should check it out.  There is a 12 week walking plan on there.  I am so excited to get started on this walking journey.  I am so excited to be on this healthniess journey.  It is something really good for me and I know it will be worth it.  I just want to be healthy.  I know for some people being healthy means, losing weight, the number on the scale, etc.  Being healthy for me is being able to run with my son, play with him out in the yard, take him to the park and be actively involved instead of sitting on the sidelines.  Being healthy means being able to walk up the 2 flights of stairs (the ones I am taking instead of the elevator) without running out of breath.  To walk into a normal store and buy a shirt without having to go to the "big", "fat", "plus" size section.  I hate being a label and that is what overweight people are they are a label.  I mean for example I have to buy a more expensive treadmill because I am to overweight for some of the less expensive ones.  It is just crazy to me but that is how things work we are all a label in one way or another.  What do you want your label to say?