Just Keep going!

I am still here, I disappeared for awhile.  I am going to try to start blogging more.  I am focused on me and that is why I haven't been writing.  I am however documenting my journey through photos recently.  I met my first weight loss goal of 10%.  I am so happy! (: I can't wait to meet my next goal and continue on this journey.  

Progress not perfection.  I started at 310 and I am down to 277.  I am feeling good and I love this feeling.  13 weeks.  If you put your mind to things you can do anything! 33lbs in 22 weeks is an accomplishment and I can't even tell you how many inches I have lost.  I plan to hopefully ride a 20 mile bike ride in May.  If you dream it you can do it and I plan to do amazing things over the next year!  2014 is my year! Don't let anyone ever tell you that you can't because you can!!  I will try to blog more often so that I can stay accountable and keep track on my progress. (: until next time.

Being Stood Up

Being stood up is strange for me.  I haven't ever been stood up before, well stood up with no explanation and no closure.  Let me set the picture... I am obviously single.  I have been on a handful of dates over the last year.  I met this guy who I thought I really might have a connection with.  We were supposed to go out last Saturday but he was out of town and didn't make it back in time respectfully text let me know, felt bad and said he would make it up to me.  We scheduled a new date for Monday.  We text most of the day and decided where to meet and a time.  Last text said see you at 7:15, I'm excited to meet you.  I text him before leaving the house and no reply.  We were already FB friends so I went on FB and to my surprise I was no longer on his friends list.  Hmm I thought something was wrong with FB surely no grown man would delete me for no reason...needless to say I went to our meeting place he didn't show after a couple text, calling his number and sending an emailing in hopes that nothing was wrong...I look and can see he is online on FB even though we aren't friends his profile is not private.  Is it normal for me to wonder what happened?  Confusion set in for sure and I could just not figure it out, everything seemed to be going good. I feel like I was owed an explanation.  I am not going to dwell on it anymore and this is the last time I will talk about it.  Please if you're a guy and you ask a woman out be respectful of her feelings.  I am hurt because of the fact that I feel like I was owed an explanation but I am not broken and I will not let this ruin me for dating other guys, I just find it odd and hope that if anyone is ever in the situation of being stood up that they know it is his loss and not yours.  We are worth so much more and I know I am worth more. In the past this would have broken me and I would have turned to food and struggled, this time I am stronger and I choose to stay stronger.  We can choose our own happiness.  I hope in life he finds what he is looking for and I hope that one day if our paths do cross he will realize what he lost out on. 

Remember you're worth it...don't ever let anyone make you feel like you're not. 

~ Amy 

20 days and a project (:

It's been 20 days today since I decided to change my life!  It's been amazing, I am not looking back.  I am so much happier and I feel 100% better.  I may not be seeing a huge loss on the scale but I have been doing circuit training 2-3 days a week and cardio the remaining days.  I had a few problems with some shin splints so have taken it easy for the last couple days.  I will be back in the swing of things soon.  Things have been a little crazy the roommates moved out and just getting everything back in order and making my house feel like my house again has been challenging.  I made over the hall bathroom with some spongebob just need to pick up the shower curtain from my mom.  It looks cute though and my son loves it. 

I think it looks cute I still need to paint the walls again and get some new flooring eventually but for now it will do.  My next project is my bathroom and then painting the room my roommates just moved out of....lots of projects going on and I love that it keeps me busy. My son certainly keeps me on my toes everyday.  I wish I lived somewhere he had more friends though.  It would be nice if he had some kids to play with.  Things are good though and I wouldn't trade it for the world.  Well that's my rambling and a quick update.  I need to get back to cleaning, tackling the hall closet is next.  Until next time, enjoy this Labor Day weekend!! 

Feeling Amazing! (:

12 days in and I feel Amazing!  This has been the best thing I could have done for myself. The awesome thing is that no one can take it away from me.  They can't take away my hard work, they can't take away my healthy eating and they cAnt take away how I feel.  I love working out, I love the new healthy foods I have been eating.  I love the fact that I haven't had any soda for 2 weeks....there is nothing better than I how feel right now.  I think the only discouraging thing for me is not seeing the number on the scale move. I know it is not the number that counts though and I know that sometimes working out causes you to gain muscle and it take a few weeks to see the pounds drop.  I am not letting this stop me! I love everything about what I am doing and for once I am putting ME first and I know I am doing the right thing for me and for my sweet boy!  Living life has a new meaning and it starts now and I couldn't be happier <3

Setting Goals

I decided to set some goals for myself....after all this is my journey.  Plus rewarding yourself for doing good makes you feel good.  My first weight loss goal is 10%.  I think this goal just fits and is a common first goal for many people.  My second goal that isn't weight loss related is to workout at least 3 nights a week. This week I have already hit 4 nights and that doesn't include today, so this goal is for next week.  I know I can do better than 3 nights but I need something to work towards.  This goal is to workout 3 nights a week starting next week for 3 weeks in a row.  I am not sure what my reward will be yet, maybe a new pair of workout pants or a top.  My reward for losing 31 pounds is to get a new sports bra because I will need one after a 31lb loss I am sure and working out in the gym with floppy boobies is not on my list of fun(: 

I think the single most thing about starting this journey again is that it is for ME.  I am doing this for myself not for anyone else.  I am proud of myself already and it has only been 6 days but that is something and for me that is a huge accomplishment already. What is better than loving yourself and giving yourself the gift to be healthy since you have it in the palm of your hands already?  It is time we start loving who we are.   I can't wait to see where this journey will take me. 

Because sometimes it just clicks!

It's amazing how you might see something on TV, or hear someone say something, or read something and you stop in your tracks and everything just clicks!  I haven't been blogging much as I had other things to do like lay on the couch, eat lots of food and get fatter.  Let's be honest sometimes that is just what you want to do.  I was laying around the other day and thinking is this it?  Is this truly my life? Then something clicked in me and I thought to myself "I don't want to be fat anymore, I am tired of living my life this way!" I went to the grocery store filled up my basket with healthy food, came home and started right then.  I didn't say oh it can wait till tomorrow or I will start Monday.  I started right then, I ate a healthy dinner...I fixed a healthy breakfast and lunch for the next day and I went to the gym.  I felt amazing, and it was like something clicked in me that hadn't for a long time.  I am tired of being on the side lines and wasting my life away sitting on a sofa eating fast food and watching weight loss shows on TV.  I am tired of people saying you have such a pretty face, I am tired of watching my friends go out and me sit home because I don't feel good enough about me to go.  I can't tell you how many times I cancel on my friends because I don't feel good in my own skin.... I want to live life, experience new things but most of all I want to be around for my amazing 6 year old.  Being a single mom isn't easy it is one of the hardest things I have ever done but I know I can do it and I want to do it right. I want to be able to kick around a soccer ball with my son on the field or just play with him at a at ground.  I realized I am worth way more than I give myself credit for and I need to remember to Believe in myself and that anything is possible! I have to be able to love myself and I know it is hard to say because so often we don't love ourselves but we need to and we can.  I got this and I have my feet pointed in the right direction for the first time in a long time. I am my biggest FAN! 

Blogging and a Recap...

I love to blog.  I just get overwhelmed and become a huge slacker.  I have so much to say and I want to get it out of my head and then I get busy and start doing other things and completely forget that I want to write down all of this stuff and then I hop in bed and go to sleep and start the day over again.  I read blogs a lot, I spend a lot of time reading blogs.  I think to myself if I have this much time to read them why I am not spending some of this time writing mine?  I don't know the answers but anyhoo here I am updating my blog for the first time in over a week or so.... I don't even know.

Vacation  - I went on Vacation it was an awesome time.  I just wish that the "family" I went with would have been more excited to be on Vacation.  I remember as a kid having to stand in lines for hours and hours to get on rides at amusement parks.  It seems like these days certain kids don't want to stand in line for more than 5 minutes.  I am sorry but you are at Disneyland at one of the peak seasons "Spring Break" if you don't plan to be in a few lines and maybe have to wait longer than 30 minutes you might as well hop the plane back home!  It is life if you want to go on a vacation during this time of the year then you shouldn't expect lines to be SHORT!!  I was so frustrated.  The good news is that my son had an AMAZING Birthday and lost another tooth!  6 years old, and I just can't believe it.  Time passes so quickly and I don't want to miss a minute of him growing up.  (If you follow me on instagram you may have seen some of these photos @lavahotgirl)

Couch to 5K - I started this program a couple of weeks ago.  Let me remind you of something, I don't excercise very often.  I had started excercising and then stopped and I am just plain lazy sometimes.  So on a very early Saturday morning I decided I was going to go outside and take a walk around my park.  I love mornings here as it is quiet not much traffic.  So I did just that, got on my walking shoes and wandered around for awhile.  I made my son go as I think it is important for him to get out and get some excercise now that the weather is getting nice.  Let me tell you he was tired after 9 minutes of being outside.  I swear winter does something to kids....I made him walk withe me anyways and we did about a mile and half in 30 minutes.  I know that is quite a long time for a mile and 30 but we were walking and he was going pretty slow.  I felt so good that I got up on Sunday and decided to start the first day of couch to 5K.  I did GREAT.  I didn't go as far as I did the day before walking but I did the entire first day workout and I finished!! I was so HAPPY and I felt good the rest of the day.  I wasn't tired like I normally am .... and then came Vacation and well all that went out the window.  However, I am back out in the morning even if it is under 40 degrees again.  I am going to bust out some couch to 5K.  I have an Electric Run 5K in September and I need to get BUSY!

Remodeling -  I am working on doing some home improvements so stay tuned for some pictures of before and after in the bathroom and bedroom.  I might even throw in some pictures of the living room, however not sure if I have any.  I am painting and getting a few new furniture items and just making it cute!  I plan to live here for another couple years so I need to make it mine and just fix it up and make the BEST of it. :)  Laters everyone!