A goal....

I often ask myself what a goal is..... I have to think about it sometimes.  My goal is to ultimately be healthy.  I am on my way, and I am working really hard at this journey and I am not giving up.  I am on week 5 of this journey and I am happy to report that things are going really well.  I know the scale is just a number but sometimes that number matters.  This week the number I am reaching for is something under 300.  I am so close that I just want to hit that goal....I have been overweight most of my life with ups and downs and a that crazy cycle of yo-yo diets.  WW seems to be working for me and I plan to stick with it until the end and beyond that.  It is so important for me to be healthy.  The last few years I have been stuck in this crazy rut of not feeling good enough.  I know I am good enough, but when you hear that you are not so much it makes you start thinking that way.  I think my relationship with my best friend at the time is what really made me feel like I wasn't good enough.  11 years of friendship to just say "well I don't feel like we are on the same healthiness journey" is hurtful.  It hurt so bad that it made me go into this depression of feeling not good enough.  It made me feel like if I wasn't good enough for my best friend then who would I be good enough for.  I know I go back to this often because it was a moment for me.  It wasn't the reason I was overweight but it was the reason at that point in my life that I stopped caring about me, about who I was about my weight.  I still plan to tell this friend of mine in the future that what he said truly hurt me.  I don't plan on doing it now or anytime soon but one day it will happen.  I know now that I am good enough and I care enough about myself to do something for myself.  I also care enough about my son to be here for him and being here for him means reaching for my goals and meeting them.  My first goal is to reach 290....and then I will set another goal.  I am doing this for me and my son and no one else.  I realize now that I matter and that anything is possible.

 

Here is a picture of me in my new workout shirt from Ruffles with love.  Check out the shop here: http://www.etsy.com/shop/RufflesWithLove

Vacation :) and a weigh in....

I have been on vacation for the last week.  I was worried and stressed about my weigh in tonight.  I didn't track the entire time I have been gone.  I did do a lot of walking so maybe with the walking and the combination of not eating everything in site led to this......

Previous weight: 304.6
Loss: 1.8
Current Weight 302.8

I am super happy with a loss....anytime I see a loss on the scale I know that I am headed in the right direction.  If I see a loss after being on vacation for a week then I am for sure on the right path.  I know it isn't always about the number on the scale but sometimes the number matters in your own head.  It mattered in mine and I am so happy. 

I had the best vacation and got to spend it in Disneyland.  It was so much fun and I enjoyed every minute of hanging out with my little cutie and my mom.  My roommate also went and we all had a blast.  I am planning my next vacation for June of next year in Florida and I am hoping to be down under 250.  I won't beat myself up if I don't reach that goal....but I think it is a reasonable one.  :)  I will leave you with some pictures as it is late and I am super sleepy.  I am back from vacation and plan to blog more frequent... please share with your friends.  I also have an awesome post for you all hopefully tomorrow.

Color Run Pictures....FINALLY!

I finally got my pictures to load....it took awhile to figure out how to make it work....there aren't very many but enjoy!

This is me before the Color Run..... notice the clean white shirt.... :)

This is our crew after the Color Run.....notice the not so clean shirts..... best experience ever.  If you ever get a chance to do the Color Run you will love it.  I highly recommend it. :)

I will run for color anyday....any time....! 

Color Run SLC 2012

I have never had so much fun during a 5K.  The Color Run 2012 was certainly worth the $35.00 entry fee.  They gave everyone a bumper sticker, color packet, headband, tattoos and a Color Run T-Shirt.... it was seriously a blast.  I think my son was a little freaked out in the beginning because it was so loud and there was so many people and he wasn't really sure what to expect, but once we started going he had so much fun!  It is so fun to go through the color explosion areas and the 5K wasn't so bad, there were a few small inclines but nothing hard and totally worth it.  I think it was the most fun that I have had in a long time.  This year I didn't run any of the Color Run however next year I plan to run the entire thing.  I am just not up to speed to run the run and I haven't gotten my new shoes for running yet (they come in next week).  I am so excited because next year we are doing the Color Run as well as another run here called the Haunted Halloween Run which is a half marathon.  I have so many fun things to do this year and I can't wait to experience each and everyone of them. 

I went to drop off my food donation at WW today for the lose for good campaign.  It seems that it turned out pretty good.  I also got my free measuring cups today.  I am excited and I hope they pull my name out of the drawing for the $250.00 gift certificate to Kohls!  I mean who wouldn't be excited to WIN!!

I will post some Awesome photos from the color run as soon as my phone starts working and will let me post them :)

Weight Watchers - Color Run

I went to my WW meeting on Monday and surprisingly it wasn't a bad thing..... My leader when I joined reminded me that if you start on a Wed., and then come on a Monday that you might not see a huge loss..... here are my Results -

Starting:  310

Loss: -4.8

Current Weight:  305.2

 

 

I am certainly not going to be complaining about those numbers! 

 

I am so excited tonight is a good friend of mines Birthday, and tomorrow is the Color Run.... I can't wait to go get all messy and colored and hang out with good friends.  This weekend is proving to be full of good things and lots of excitement. :)  I am certainly enjoying my ride. 

 

 

WW Lose for good campaign is also kicking off its food drive this weekend.  So if you have any food that you would like to donate for a good cause stop by your WW location and drop off canned foods.  It is worth it and it is for a great cause.  I am so excited to be part of this and be part of this Awesome journey.  It hasn't always been easy for me and I am sure there will be lots of struggles along this path that I am starting for myself, but it is going to be worth it and I am so excited to be starting it.  I can't say that my life would be different if I had made different turns and things....but at this point I am glad I made the choices I did and took the steps I did because it certianly made me who I am today.  I can't ever change me and I am thankful for that. :)  Enjoy your weekend, because I know that I am going to enjoy mine.  Also thanks for reading and sticking with me. :) 

Weight Watchers

So I was inspired to try WW again..... I have done WW several times in the past so I know that it works.  I am excited to start on this program and I am super happy with my choice to go with this option.  I have been counting calories for 60 days now and just don't feel like my calorie counting is making a huge difference.  My weight on the WW scale was so much different then the weight on the scale at my Dr. office and my huge 14 pound loss that I thought I had wasn't exactly a 14 pound loss, but still a loss..... so I will put it out here again for everyone to see my starting weight with WW is:

Starting Weight:  310

 

I am using that as my starting point and I will start to post what losses I have had as of my next WW meeting.  My WW meeting is a short week this week because I started on a Wednesday, however I will be going to meetings on Monday nights.  So I will be short a couple of days this week.  I really am so excited to be sharing this journey with as many people as possible.  I know I have bad weeks and I know I have good weeks but the key is that you get back on track as much as possible and know that you are doing this for you and only you and that you are the one who matters the most. 

 

 

I am so excited about the color run coming up next weekend.  I can't wait and I am happy to share it with some really fun people!!  This is going to be an exciting day and I can't say that I am going to run the race because I am not really in any shape to be running outside yet as I am still trying to master walking/running on the treadmill, but I am working my way up to being able to do whatever I put my mind to and at next years finish line I will be running across the finish line because I am setting my mind to be able to do that. :)  I am loving this journey and just hope that at one point I will inspire someone who is going through the same thing that I am.  I am inspired everyday at some of the blogs I read and hope to one day be that inspiration that someone else will need to say that they can also do this!!  The Journey begins here. Hope everyone has a great weekend! 

Pinterest ..... and MFP :)

I am doing pretty good, haven't had much to write about.  I did the JDRF walk and that went well.... since I only weigh in once a month it makes it hard to really tell anyone how I am doing scale wise, but as for eating I am still counting my calories faithfully using MFP... if anyone wants to find me on there let me know.... and if you aren't already following me on Pinterest you should be... I post Amazing things and it is soooo worth it to follow me.  I post great healthy recipes, motivation for fitness and everything and anything else you can think of.

I am so excited for this upcoming month, there are so many exciting things happening.  Stay tuned and you will find out what those are.... and if you want to send some people my way.  I love having new people read my blog and hopefully find some motivation from it.  :)  Hopefully I will be able to start posting more regularly now that things are settled down around home.

Have a great labor day weekend! Enjoy the extra day off for those of you that get one!